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Day 6 - Still sticking with it - did cheat last night and had some wine with my husband - but still stuck to the diet every other way.- I'm not going to beat myself up about the wine - it's done, I did it, now I'm moving on. In the past I may have thought, will you blew it with the wine, may as well break out some cheese and crackers while you're at it, oh and some ice-cream, and maybe heat up that leftover lasagna and is that one of those fudge stripped cookies over there!! I had a rough day yesterday with work - really rough (basically quit my job because I couldn't take working for someone with the IQ of a cucumber. Put it this way, we're in the medical profession and she's such an idiot she refers to Alzheimer's as...OLD-TIMERS..what a dumba.. and she seriously thinks she's correct. We're supposed to educate our clients - although she's American born and raised, her English is HORRIBLE and quite often she's RUDE. Long story short, I just couldn't take it anymore, got into an argument with her and quit. It's not that big of a deal because it was just a part-time thing that I did in addition to my other job.
I still stuck with my diet and didn't resort to my usual coping mechanism of drowning my sorrows in deep fried chicken and chocolate cake. What I have noticed at this stage is that emotionally I'm not using food to numb stress, worries, and emotions. It's rough having to use new coping mechanisms - I don't light up a cigarette, I don't stop at McDonald's, I can't even "reward" myself with a diet Pepsi. So I took the dog for a walk. I talked it out with my husband. I cried. I'm replacing all my old habits with healthier ways of coping - it's not an overnight change but it's gradual and I'm slowly adding more and more healthy changes into my life. My husband and I have watched several seasons of The Biggest Loser and from the begining we noticed that the guys that blubberd and cried the most, for some reason lost the most weight. Now when we watch the show and when they show someone having big breakdowns, we're like...oh - so-and-so is having a great week -they're going to have good numbers...Maybe there's something to it.
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