I'm so sorry to hear that your feeling down... It's not wrong for you to feel that you need a little time for your self. Is there any way that someone could hang out with hubby while you get a little time away? It really sounds like it would do you a world of good. Maybe get a girlfriend to go along and you can vent a bit. I really hope that will work out for you. You need to stay strong body and soul for you to be able to be of any help to hubby. You take care. ((HUGS))